Wow, it’s been a long time since I’ve even been on this thing! I’m a terrible blogger but this little corner of the net is still a special spot to occasionally visit and update. Ahem.
It’s now the end of March and it has been a really busy year. It’s been hard getting used to residency. Tim’s hours hover somewhere in the 80′s. Of course, it could be worse (think: surgery residency) but 80 plus isn’t great either. The upside is, feeling like a single mom has never felt so great as it does in this small town of many military wives. I’ve been incredibly blessed in meeting not just one, but several, very very nice wives and mothers whose husbands are either residents themselves (or recently were), or have been deployed once/twice/. . .five times. These are tough, strong, Christian women who are seeking to do right by their families. I have really needed that sort of example in this new phase of my life.
The other good thing about living here is that I have realized afresh how much I love being a mom. Don’t get me wrong- some days I really feel like tearing my hair out and turning in my mom badge- but on many days I’m grateful for my job and the two sweet boys entrusted to my care. That sense of identity and calling has taken me years to develop and I’m grateful that God has slowly worked in me to give me that. Becoming a mother wasn’t the easiest and most natural transition for me and it took a long time for me to quit looking wistfully back at my college days. I mean, really! Those college years were great but these mom years are much harder and thus, very good for my soul and maturity as a person. But it’s not always this sort of an epiphany. Like I said, lots of times I’m crying into the couch (or Tim) about what on earth am I doing as a mom!!
But God is working in me here in Mississippi, and I can honestly say that I am grateful for what He’s doing and I do really like it here. I’m surprised that moving to Mississippi has been such a blessing, and thankful that’s He’s taking good care of us.